I’m Such A Scale Whore

I think I made a big mistake signing up for a 6am class. I HATE early morning rises with a passion. I will keep trying though and I even bought a skipping rope for tomorrow’s class as requested by the trainer on the first day. I am tempted to write the owner of SBC for Brampton/Mississauga to see if I can join an evening class…but I need to buck it up and just go!

My food choices have been very good with no cravings or want of my latest fatty foods (chips & dip and chocolate covered raisins). But today…I want chips & dip!! I have to try and stay strong as it is not a small personal size bag I want…but the big bag…the WHOLE bag!

The scale has been gradually coming down from my high of 167.0lbs on Monday (thank goodness!). I saw 163.5lbs this morning and thanked the stars that I had only really gained 13lbs since last bootcamp, not 17 (too close to 20 for my liking, lol). Obviously I would love to have it show no weight gain, but my clothes don’t lie.

Wish me luck for tomorrow…

I just couldn’t get out of bed this morning :( I tried but couldn’t and therefore reset the alarm for 730am where I slept wonderfully with Bruiser. I will NOT do this again. And I may make up for the missed workout tonight at the gym (depends on when I get home from my father’s) or on the weekend. I feel bad that I missed but my body was just not co-operating this morning.

The scale was 2lbs lower this morning which was nice to see even if not a real loss, lol.

Last night Bruiser had a vet appointment and I took a photo of him and sent it to Jeff with the caption “isn’t he cute?”. Jeff called the house and left me a wacky message that had me howling. He was flirting on the phone and then had this laugh at the end of one of his statements which was hilarious. He is definitely more carefree now that he and A are home. He’s been pretty attentive too since he’s been home which is nice especially with dinner this past weekend and then the phone call last night. We are cleaning his rental Saturday and then going to dinner.

Anyways…I am in better spirits and although a bit peeved at myself that I missed bootcamp, I can deal - as long as I assure myself that was the first and last one I will miss.

Note to self: need skipping rope for tomorrow’s bootcamp.

I like my sleep. So does Bruiser. When I awoke at 513am on my own (worried I would miss the alarm clock, lol) and rolled out of bed, Bruiser looked at my like I had lost my marbles. I quickly washed my face, got dressed and then threw him into his crate (after I had to chase him down, lol) and promised I’d see him in a little over an hour. Needless to say he was not a happy dog.

First and last day of bootcamp is always their fit tests. I have copied my results from the end of session two that ended in November as for some reason I didn’t go to the first/last of session 3 which ended mid-Dec. My current results are in red. You can see my improvements easily from Sep to Nov, and see how fast I lost my great results.
Measurements (Sep 10/ Oct 15/ Nov 9/ May 12):
Flexed bicep - 13.00″ / 12.00″ / 12.00″ / 12.5″
Chest - 42.50″ / 41.25″ / 40.75″ / 41.50″
Abdomen - 35.00″ / 32.75″ / 32.75 / 35.5″
Hips/Gluteous - 43.25″ / 42.00″ / 40.75″ / 43.0″
Right Thigh - 25.50″ / 25.00″ / 24.00″ / 24.75″
Calf - 15.50″ / 14.50″ / 14.50″ / 14.5″

Fit Test (Sep 10/ Oct 15/ Nov 9/ May 12):
# of push ups done in 1 min: 24 (knees) / 45 (knees) - session 1
# of push ups done in 1 min: 11 (boy) / 21 (boy) - session 2
# of push up done in 1 min: 7 (boy) & 15 (knees)
# of crunches done in 1 min: 35 / 45 / 48 / 33
Plank hold: 1:08 / 1:31 / 2:03 / 0:30
Squat hold: 0:44 / 2:00 / 7:30 / 0:38
1km jog: 6:52 / 5:58 / 5:30 / 7:05

My weight this morning was 167lbs (also TOM week so could see a big loss next week), and I am a definite size 12 :( I am glad I rejoined bootcamp, as I need to get back down to my happy 10’s and the 150’s.

There were only 5 of us this morning and one lady is only doing 3x a week so 4 regulars. We should get some great individual attention I think. Our instructor is a powerhouse and besides personal training also trains for boxing and some form of karate. We all told him our goals (mine to lose 10lbs or get into my size 10’s) and he said he will work with us all to help us get there and told us to stay off the scales (LOL) and to use clothing as our guide.

I am counting calories and went back to fitday to do so. Currently this morning I have had an instant oatmeal and a apple crisp granola bar for 320 calories. I also brought my water bottle. I can do this. I can be on track for a month…100%. It is only 30 days, and if I can get back to the 150’s and my size 10’s…it would be so worth it.

I haven’t disappeared, I do promise you. Yesterday I had to work and then Jeff called to ask if I wanted to go to dinner over the border. So I wasn’t home. Today I awoke to a whopping sinus headache and I still have it. Normally my Sunday is a cleaning day and I was also planning on going to my father’s and hooking up my laptop for him as his computer, but I’m going nowhere and I don’t think I’m cleaning either.

I finished The Other Boleyn Girl and ordered 4 other books by the same author. They should arrive next week some time. I have been a reading mood rather than a computer/net mode which is why the quite. Have you guys ever heard of A New Earth, Awakening to Your Life's Purposefurniture Elhovo? Supposedly it is on Oprah’s Book Club and the reviews of it aren’t too bad. I am more into fiction rather than self-help books but I’m thinking some self help is required, lol.

Baseball was fun. For the whole season last year I didn’t really feel a part of the team. I worked with these people but being displaced to a different location I was still getting to know those people as well, so I just felt odd. But Thursday night, it was a totally different feeling and I loved it. Looks like I get to be catcher for the season which I love. I even got some great catches and throws in so I think my team was pretty impressed with me…and so was I. I was super duper sore for the next few days though…and if that is any indication this coming week is going to be full of sore; Bootcamp starts tomorrow 6am.

My first baseball game of the season is tonight. I’m excited but scared at the same time. I don’t particularly like the game but I do it as a way to come out of my shell. Having to stand up in front of people and swing a bat…not my favourite pastime. I feel like they are staring at me and making fun of me. I don’t mind back catching though…hopefully I got that position.

That is all I have to say…

The geese have been missing for about two weeks when our building’s owner put out picnic tables in the sweep of grass that they had been guarding. While walking home a week ago I would run into them down at the Burnanthorpe/Hurontario stairs (not in the parking lot!)…feeling like they were following me.

Then they completed disappeared for about a week…didn’t see them at all last week or this…until last night.

Since my car is 65% ‘new’ (whole side replaced and then last year the back end when I got hit) I have been parking at the back of the parking lot, so that no one will ding my car sides.

Last night a coworker and myself are walking out and she is close to the building and I am at the back so I walk and lo and behold, there’s those damn geese! But guess where they are….RIGHT AT MY CAR! Not a car length down, not ‘near’ my car…but AT MY CAR.

When I saw them at Burnanthorpe/Hurontario they were friendly in that you could walk a close to them and they left you be, so I thought…I will just walk up to my car and get in.

NOPE…

One starting honking at me and walking quickly towards me so I backed up away from them. I wait for my coworker to drive up and she offers to drive me to my car, not knowing that where they are IS my car. She starts laughing when she realizes and I told her to drive up close to my car and maybe they would walk/fly away…

NOPE…

She then leaves and I have NO clue how I am going to get to my car as each time I try to get to my car, out comes the wings and honking and BOTH of them come towards me.

A guy in a minivan had been watching and decided to help in trying to herd them around his van as he drove up to my car. The geese, knowing I am there, try to get around the van back to me. I quickly RUN to the passenger side of my car and climb over to the driver’s seat. Once I sit down, one goose is staring at me through the driver’s side window honking at me and the other is in front of my car. I look at the one to my left and told him in a stern voice to not peck at my car, it had been newly replaced and slowly backed up and drove off….

I am a freakin’ goose magnet…

I hit this wall the other day…feeling like crud day in a day out now for a few days. I just want to watch tv or sleep. Baseball starts next week and the following week, SBC, so that should help get me out of the blahs. I feel lethargic and constantly tired, which is nothing whatsoever with my food choices! (LMAO).

Gah…I’m self destructing the weight loss portion of me anyways. Baseball and SBC cannot come fast enough.

I’m not looking for pity - just sayin’ :)

I had strawberries for breaky…not a bad start of the day.

I have a wedding tomorrow - my cousins. I bought a dress a month or so back, makes me feel like I’m all boobs…ah well at least on this side of the family we actually are and I won’t feel out of place.

Jeff called last night from his ex’s. They are now ‘home’ and will continue therapy to help her get her mobility back. The ex was out taking her first breather in two months since A got sick so Jeff called me to let me know they were back home as Monday. I was so happy for him and of course for her that I kept saying it and he was laughing at me.

Then he got all weird…like a new guy trying to figure out how to ask someone out they like and asked me if I wanted to help him clean one of his rental properties on the 17th that will be empty so he can re-rent it out. It took him about 5 minutes for him to get around to his question which is very odd for him. I said yes because this means we get to spend the WHOLE day together and then we are going for dinner :) I know cleaning isn’t ‘fun’ by any means but it means we get to catch up on some missed time and I can attack him all day (LOL).

My stomach is seriously upset (cramping and general nauseated) this morning and I’m freezing. I just finished fruit salad for dinner. Hopefully with the start of a new month can come the restart of a healthy lifestyle.

P.S. I am just taking Jeff and I…one day at a time. I know I should move on, but currently until I get comfortable with my body again…I’m not even thinking of dating.

I grabbed a pair of my size 10 jeans today and had to pour myself into them. Partially because they are freshly washed but mainly because I cannot control my eating. Yesterday was one of the better days I have had in a long long time.

What is going to get me to get back on track?

Sorry for lack of posts…work is really busy, worked until 1030pm last night and I have an awful sinus headache for the 2nd day in a row.

Well I am all set for the week. I have lettuce, celery, tomatoes, cucumber, chicken, and $30 worth of fruit (pineapple, watermelon, strawberries, honeydew and canteloupe) in the fridge. I’m really excited about the salad :)

I was suppose to go to Dad’s this weekend and fix is computer. I put it off until today and then this morning decided to put it off for tomorrow night after work. I don’t think he was exceedingly happy about it, but I just didn’t feel like doing myself up and heading out to his smoke filled house for the whole day.

So tomorrow Bruiser and I are heading to Dad’s and if the computer cannot be fixed in a 2-3 hour timeframe, I will take it with me and work on it during the week.

What am I doing today? Being super duper lazy. I haven’t even done my normal Sunday cleaning which I do first thing. I am currently watching HGTV and just finished seeing a person’s house who had a floor to ceiling wine racks and then a wine cellar. I hate wine…so to me that is just wasted space!

Food this weekend…awful. Friday night Jeff and I drove over the border to the US and went to our usual haunt for steak. It was delicious - I didn’t I would have Pete’s for a while but that was the only place he wanted to go. I told him he has caused my 10lb weight gain as usually one day of the weekend was his and that kept my food under control, lol. He laughed at me.

Anyways, I’m going to post this and get super lazy again…LOVE lazy!

Jeff called tonight, A is progressing and now can wiggle her toes so although it will take time, it looks like she will get her mobility back - yay! Jeff expects to be home in about a week with her as they are not medicating her any longer…it is just physical therapy she is going through.

I asked him what his plan was for work, etc and he noted that he will be moving in with his ex and they will continue to both be off work for about a month or two and work together re: A’s therapy etc. I didn’t say anything about he and I specifically but I did let him know I did want to see him, but said ‘no pressure’ and I noted that with him being at his ex’s, he and I getting together would be just as hard as if he was at the hospital. He will still have his home, I cannot see them getting back together, he loves his freedom too much and as well he knows he shouldn’t have married her to begin with, he wouldn’t make that mistake again. I really want to see him prior to him going back home (well her home, uggh)…but what can you do.

But anyways, this is not about me, it is about a very strong little girl who keeps amazing those around her. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers…they helped serve her well.

Update 03/25/08
Jeff and I are meeting for dinner in St. Catharines. He has someone renting his place for now (didn’t know that, lol) so I am to meet him outside of his house at 7pm. Guess there will be no hanky panky during that time…LMAO.

I had an eye appointment this morning because of my right eye on playing nice. There is no concern though, they have seen this before and all it is is excessive dryness. The eyeball is dry and therefore the surface is rough and not reflecting properly. I am to lube my eyes each other or more and have another appointment for Friday 9am. They are also weaning me off the steroids (only taken for the right eye).

They did say that with both eyes I am 20/20 or pretty much there. My eyes go in and out of blurriness when I strain to read their charts, lol. But yay! I do note that today, vision is better than the last few days.

As for diet yesterday, water was 8 cups (yay! It was a challenge though), food was not good as I got the munchies and had two bowls of cereal and a small bowl of pasta for dinner. I will note that I don’t eat that much during the day…so I may still have been okay calorie wise. It is not that I starve myself during the day, I do eat breaky and lunch, just low calorie versions.

Exercise was a 90min walk with the puppy. We left at 530pm and got back in at 710pm, Bruiser immediately fell asleep, lol. We had a lot of fun as we went another route on our path and saw many, many dogs including a Beagle.

Tonight Jackie is coming over with Gunther and we are going to take the puppies for a walk…shall be fun to see how Gun and Bruiser interact, lol.

Welp, going to run home now - lunchtime!

So I got in my 8 cups of water (guzzled almost 4 cups before bed, lol) yesterday and I think only 45min of a walk…but I also walked too and from work which is 20min in total. Yesterday was therefore a pretty good success :)

Today so far I am working on cup 3 of 8 (eek!) and So far I have walked at least 35min (to work, home for lunch and then back to work) and a 5min walk with Bruiser at lunch so he could do his business.

I am feeling really fat today, roly poly in fact and not the last bit attractive - but this is normal…this feeling is what helps get me back into taking care of myself.

I found out that a coworker also joined Survivor Bootcamp for the same session as me as she also lives in the same area. Cool beans!

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I just signed up for Survivor Bootcamp again. The session starts on May 12th and I signed up for the 6am classes which are a 5min walk from my place at the park Bruiser and I walk to and from daily. I opted to do the A.M. classes like Taylore as she seemed to have great success getting her workouts over at the start of the day.

I think I’m nuts! I wouldn’t describe me as not a morning person…I am not at all grumpy when I get up, in fact rather cheerful, but getting out of bed is hard as I LOVE my sleep. Unlike the last three sessions when I could opt to do the morning classes to suit my schedule (only did it once, lol), I cannot ‘opt’ to do the P.M. class as it is a different instructor and he doesn’t teach any P.M. classes, whereas prior she did both classes. I will definitely be going as I paid $208.95 to go, but it will NOT be easy. And yes, I will be going to all 5 classes a week like before.

This session should see me with great results as I will also be walking at least 60min each night with the puppy and as well walking to and from work. I feel hope…which is nice.

Monday - eat right, 8 cups of water and walk dog, 60min
Tuesday - eat right, 8 cups of water and walk dog, 60min
Wednesday - eat right, 8 cups of water and walk dog, 60min
Thursday - eat right, 8 cups of water and walk dog, 60min
Friday - eat right, 8 cups of water and walk dog, 60min
Saturday - eat right, 8 cups of water and walk dog, 60min & gym, 45min
Sunday - eat right, 8 cups of water and walk dog, 60min & gym, 45min

This is basic I know and the gym is only in there for Sat/Sun - that is because this week I have so many work deadlines that I really cannot go home at lunch for the dog and go to the gym. The dog shouldn’t be in his crate from 8am to 5pm as he has icky accidents so I’m going to go home at lunch, let him out to do his business, play for 10-14min or so and then back to work. One thing about this walking…I get in an additional 40min of walking a day if I go home at lunch.

Another beautiful day today - and I am covering up because I am feeling fat and bloated. Must, get out of this mood and the only way of doing this is to just throw myself into it. I am going to look for a few DVD workout videos as well - got rid of all my VHS when I moved this second time and that included all my Billy Blanks (Taebo). Any suggestions?

P.S. Eyes aren’t the greatest today. Not blurry but not as clear as clear as usual.

P.S.S. I know I have a few blogs to catch up on…was a bad mental week last week and all about me, me, me.

I had to do some work today. I was going to go into the office but instead worked from home. I got to watch HGTV and their Green Marathon while doing report cards and March month end.

Food this weekend was horrible (doesn’t surprise me) but tomorrow is Day 1 of food and the gym, which reminds me I need to pack my gym bag tonight. I just need to throw myself into it. Though this week is all about deadlines so I’m worried about getting the gym in as that is 5 hours I’m taking out of my work day. With Bruiser home, I cannot really go to the gym after work as if I’m working through lunch he is home from 8 to 5 on his own in his crate and that usually means I have a few accidents to clean up as he is still a puppy. So if anything, just for this week, the gym may have to go.

Did you guys all have a good weekend? I had my balcony door and windows open all weekend, it was nice to air out my apt and bring in the outside, inside.

Well it is 836pm, I’m going to try and get up at try a new routine with Bruiser and get up at 6/630am so I’m going to grab a movie and go lay in bed. I also need to put in a repair request with building maitenance as my bathtub faucets are seriously leaking, good thing they are leaking into the tub, lol.

I wanted to go to the Toronto Home Show last week but due to having eye surgery that was a definite no go. I love shows such as these as you never leave without tons of promotional products :) When Jackie and I went to the Toronto National Women’s show we left with quite a few goodies. Actually I still have a few Cambino candies from that show.

Anyways, I’m laying here on the couch. Today is my lazy day. Tomorrow I am going to work to make up one of the 3 days I was off last week. I don’t have to but we have so much going on and a deadline to meet since our 6 month interim was March 31st and my boss would like to present some numbers. Bruiser is snoozing at the top of my head. I have learned to lay down two pillows on the couch, one laying on top of the other but about 1/2 a foot off. That 1/2 is ‘his’ spot when he wants to sleep if we are lying down this way. Else…he tries to lay half on me and the pillows.

HGTV is having a “House Arrest” marathon…cool show. It’s from the UK and interesting to see some things I could incorporate into my life to help the environment. One of the things I will be doing is walking to and from work except on Thursdays and rainy days. As well if there is something I want to do directly after work I will bring the car. But with the price of gas ($1.20/L!!) and only living a 10min walk from work…just makes sense.

Well I’m going to settle in and laze about some more. Have a great Saturday!

I had my one week Lasik/PRK post op this afternoon (another $50 to get to and from the centre because my car is not yet back) and my right eye is still inflamed and my steroids have been upped on it again. My left eye is seeing very nicely but my right is pulling it down. So they made me another appointment on Wednesday.

I’m not overly concerned, I am only 1 week post and my vision will have ups and downs for the next few months and PRK is said to be up to 6 months.

Then I call my dealership about my car, so excited to pick it up and now it needs new struts etc as it will not align. I almost started crying, not because of the additional $900 cost but because now I cannot see Jeff tomorrow. I was looking forward to seeing him so much and now that is out. I called him and left a message instead of texting him. They should have noticed the alignment issue last Tuesday, I told them about the steering, had they noticed they could have ordered the parts and fixed it today and I could have it back tomorrow. Now they have to order the parts and I may get it back Tuesday night.

I have stopped caring about the money part of it…yeah it is using a credit card to pay it but there is nothing I can do…just be thankful I do have credit to access in times of trouble like this. So although it sounds like I don’t ‘care’ about the money per se…I cannot do anything about it…so I’m not going to stress over it. Now now seeing Jeff tomorrow night…I’m stressing. Yeah, my priorities are backwards :P

Looks like I will be spending Saturday watching The Curse of the Black Scorpion. I will watch it a few times, in english and mandarin with subtitles…thanks to closed captioning.

159.7lbs this morning. It was really hard not to go down to the convenience store in my building and grab some ice cream on the way back from our walk. Instead I scoured my bare cupboards, found nothing and grumbled about it to myself for the remainder of the evening, lol.

I don’t know if I wrote it here or just at IAM but I am addicted to Apartment Therapy and saw a couple of weeks back a walk in tub which I thought was pretty cool. A few people commented that they thought these kind of tubs should only be used for those with mobility issues and that they were eyesores, but I kind of liked them!

So last night while grumbling about having the munchies and nothing to munch on, I perused AT, Dogster and Puggle.org - my life has become all about my home and puppies, lol. I need to include fitness sites in there…maybe then it too will become a part of my life again *sigh*

Just have to share! I saw this light on a home design blog and absolutely LOVE it. Though there is no place to put a wall sconce in my current apartment, I’d love to buy a few of these Murray Feiss lights and store them for later use in my own place. I think they are so elegant and visually pleasing. So tempted to buy and store!

I had two meetings today at head office. I also got to visit with a very pregnant co worker who is also one of the IT admin peeps. I talked to her today about needing a new MBP adapter as I have used mine so often that the cord is starting to fray where it has been bent so often. I told her I had been putting it off in asking my agency’s IT guy as I knew I was going to get a lecture on the proper use of the cord and how to store it, etc. She laughed at me and said she could order it for me as she was in the midst of ordering some CAT6 cable and other computer accessories that we also seem to be in short supply on. I almost took her up on it but being in management I should follow the proper processes and go through my IT guy first.

As for my eyes, they got pretty sore around lunch time so I took a few advil and staved it off. I couldn’t keep my eyes dry enough today at work, they were soaking up the moisture.

Food today was pretty good, I did have indian for lunch but tried to keep it ‘normal’ and had Special K for dinner. I’ve already taken Bruiser on our hour walk and it is now 707pm. I’m zonked, seriously ready to crawl into bed and call it a night - hard day on the eyes!

I need to go grocery shopping and get some good healthy food in the house. With nothing in the cupboards…it makes me want to go downstairs to the convenience store and get chips and ice cream…since of course they don’t sell salads :P

Back at work this morning. Vision is blurry, though sharp when viewing far away. I needed to be back at work, I was getting into a funk, sleeping the days away and getting sad and missing Jeff more and more.

He text’d yesterday afternoon about getting together last night but I still don’t have my car back and even though I could tell he wanted to see me, we opted put it off as he would hate himself if anything were to happen to A (his daughter) and he was over 30min away when he should only be 5 (Ronald McDonald House).

A is doing well, she has a bit more movement and you could hear in his voice him being more at ease. The hospital took the decision from him and the ex on whether or not A would go back to taking the drug for leukemia that inhibits her nerve growth…she won’t be taking it as they are seeing progress every day in small movements. Jeff said yesterday was a great day, he and her went for two walks with her in a wheelchair around the campus (McMaster is also a large University) and she was in better spirits and therefore so was he.

So we may get together on Saturday with me coming to Hamilton. He and the ex take turns sleeping either at Ronald McDonald House or in A’s room at the hospital. Tonight and tomorrow is Jeff’s hospital stay and then back to RMH for Sat/Sun. I am excited to see him, I just want to put my arms around him and never let go…at least for that night.

Anyways, got to get to work, 3 days off during month ends, commissions and report cards is not where I wanted to be. Should get my car back this afternoon or tomorrow…have to start looking for a wedding gift for my cousin (was thinking of some sharp looking Riedel glasses and some other odds and ends) and go to PetsMart, Bruiser is teething.

Oh…scale this morning, 160.2lbs - today is day one of eating proper though I am having Indian for lunch with a co-worker.

I didn’t get to work this morning, as my right eye didn’t want to play nice. It didn’t want to open and once it did, it was extremely blurry. I am currently seeing with my left eye which is a very strange experience as it has always been the really bad one. I feel bad that I am not back at work, really bad. I hate saying “I will be in!” to “Okay, sorry I can’t”, even though the boss is compassionate, I still feel like I am taking advantage.

I’m not worried about the eye, I will have good and bad days, but no matter what, I will be at work tomorrow morning. But for now, I’m going to post this and head back to bed - I’m obviously overstraining my eyes and I must learn to pay attention more to them. They are ’seeing’ again and I must play nice with them!

Have I told you I have a sister that lives in Missouri? She found her husband online (well that sounds bad, but you get my drift, she met him online) and now lives out that way with him and her daughter. I heard my mom say that for their honeymoon they stayed at Thousand Hills Golf Resort which is one of many beautiful Branson hotels in their area. I say heard as my mom has poisoned this sister against me. So her and I haven’t talked since I was at her stag and doe. I even have a niece I have never met and another on the way. Such is my family life.

Today was a great eye day…or ‘is’ should be the word I use. Yesterday was all blurry, today pretty crisp and sharp and my left eye which was at -10.something is seeing better than my right. I still don’t have my car back which is getting really bothersome.

I am getting pretty used to walking to work, maybe I should buy a car cover and place her in the garage for the summer. I mean it only takes 10min to walk to work. Nah, it is nice to have around for convenience and I really miss her. I better have her back by Friday as I have my one week post op at the clinic and I don’t want to pay another $50 to get to and from.

Tomorrow I am going back to work - I’m hoping the eyes cooperate. Currently they are just sore and I let my boss know that I am coming in but may take the afternoon off if my eyes aren’t up to a full day. It is wonderful to have a flexible boss :)

Next week, and I know you have heard this many times before…GYM time! Bruiser is good with a full day in his cage and I’m going to do the gym thing at lunch. My boss (not the one mentioned above, but another) has encouraged me to get back to the gym and go at my lunch hours, stating he does and that if my hour goes over, just to make it up. Yep, I have a great job :)

Quick post while I can! My band aid contact was removed today and I still have a bit of inflammation on the lower part of my right eye so steroid drops every 2 hours on that baby.

My eyes have been tired today and the eye doc said that is normal that I should give it all the rest it wants. She also suggested me to start taking in 1,000mg of vitC so instead of having the cab take me home after my appointment I had it take me to Walmart where I bought it and some weight loss pills, well Hoodia. I have used it before and maybe it is just psychological but it seriously got rid of my cravings and helped me get back on track a year or so ago. So I’m going to give them a go again.

I am feeling plump and round as of late and want to get back on track…which is a good sign. Not that I need to, but that I ‘want’ to - my mojo appears back. Now I just got to get the eyes to follow suit :)

My close up vision in both eyes is awful. Far away not too bad but very blurry. Today is definitely a step backwards, but from all my reading and research this does happen and will happen over the course of the next little while.

I have taken tomorrow off work - staring at the computer for 5-10min…tires my eyes right out.

I have my 3rd post op at 320pm today. They should be removing my band aid (contact) off of the PRK eye. I’ve been sleeping lots - my eyes love sleeping…though in the mornings, it takes a bit to open them up.

Yesterday morning I had to get up and go to my first post op appointment. My right eye was good, my left eye was not a happy camper and I tried to stay away from the numbing drops prior the 940am appt. You could tell the lasik patients versus the PRK ones. I seemed to be the only PRK one in there as the rest were all joking and fine. Had my left eye been done lasik I would have been with them but my left eye was not a happy camper and the light was truly bugging me, even with the very dark sunglasses I had on.

As soon as I got into the dark examination room, they put numbing drops into my left eye (yay) and then examined both the eyes. They are both healing well though my right is a bit inflamed and they upped the steroid drops for it from 4x a day to 8.

My vision is surprising. It changes throughout the day from crystal clear to blurry but I’m seeing pretty well for not having any contact lenses in. I can see the CN tower from my balcony window! My right eye sees it really well and my left can see it too though it is a bit blurry. Just an FYI for someone reading HO for the first time, my left was a -10.something.

I do have problems with close up vision right now which is opposite from what I was before. Going on the computer is hard as I pretty much have to have the laptop up close to my face to read.

Tomorrow I have a 320pm appt for my left eye, they are hoping to remove the contact lens bandage and I have read that my vision in the left will go worse and not to freak out. From what I have been reading and what I have been told, it could take up to 6 months for my left eye to give me it’s final results. I could have some great days and some bad days and to just be patient. That I can do.

My eyes are dry…have to get off the computer. G’night!